To Be Sure

Or something like that, certainly the major changes were recorded and remain, but this was a comment to my blog famiy but when the comment was too long to post, I borough it here because, well, it's a record of a life, sort of... so it is here.

I am floating around the net these days, other daily blogs have replaced this one, and dozens of other blogs have sprouted untouted, but longing for notice just the same. I seldom Tweet, but exist there. I rarely Facebook, but have a few large clans there (various softball teams, to mention a few, and dozens of pages I've created over the years that occasional receive content), I am alive, in my own way, in many places online.

Offline, I work and play softball and text with my best friend, but seldom have much else going on in life. Partly due to lack of time, mostly due to lack of inspiration outside of my head. People seldom interest me for more than a few moments anymore, which is sad, but I tired of the repetitious fears and judgments, so I enjoy my reclusive personal life and stay busy 80-90 hours a week with work and softball.

I share a 2200 sq ft house, so have lots of space (though my storage stuff remains in New York since I put it there 25 years ago) and it is comfortable. My roommate is a very compatible younger guy who brings two kids into my world every week or so and they are respectful as kids go. I love the space in which I live, in spire of the diminished privacy when the kids are here due to the layout (their bedrooms, the laundry room, the garage, and the front door are on my side of the house). Mostly, it's quiet and just right for me.

Life is good, loneliness comes around less often as I've accepted my differences and no longer seek compromise, much lol. I wish you as happy a life and wish we could continue our communications...

The Major Changes

And in the end... I suppose this blog might have been meant to be a daily blog, but somehow it never took off as the daily duo it might have replaced never paused long enough to fade into the background (some dailies never truly end {like love}, if you know what I mean), but this blog remains as the lead blog for the expanded daily set it might have been meant to be (the set consists primarily of this and these three sisters and several off shoots, maybe, though the latter three are also tied to the current daily that did not pause long enough for this one to actually take root in day to day daily life, and then there are a few other older sidebars that may still draw words now and then and still other more specific subject blogs that are not quite daily, but on-going when the subject comes up.

In any case, this entry marks another major change of life (though the actual physical change is still just symbolic as the activity has not commenced) as the elliptical machine, all $4300 worth, was delivered yesterday. It sits relatively next to the recliner (all $300 of it... maybe it's time for an upgrade lol) in the corner of the living room, facing the TV, so i have a choice of activities when I come into the living room. Sit and vege in front of the TV, or work out on the elliptical while I vege out in front of the TV. Or music, music is a good motivation and accompaniment to both exercise and relaxation. Anyway, a major expense marks a major change, as does moving into a new space, radically changing lifestyle, diet, physical activity, relationships, and so on. So if I remember this blog exists, I'll at least record the life change here. The elliptical arrival is what brings us here today. Hopefully a change in diet and lifestyle to increase exercise and fitness and all the benefits that come with that will follow. In the end, for the moment, I am still alone in most everything. I've got a great roommate who shares meals and chats and expenses and time and space, but the heart that still longs to be in love remains waiting for the person who can inspire that again. Life is pretty near perfect, otherwise.

So how is your record playing?

Narf :)