perhaps plateauing

even after all this time (referring to the time passed since the last entry here, not to suggest nothing worth recording happened, but just not recording the life in this fashion or blog), much is the same even as much changes... work continues to inspired smiles, some days more smiles, not a day of pure frustration yet (which is amazing if you knew how frustrating the previous job i had was)... wonderful people, imperfect but mostly trying... just sensing some avoidance from a couple or few who may know no other way, but hopefully they will learn to trust and be the family they all say they want to be... each day more progress, more rewards, more to learn and more connections and more respect... relatively complete autonomy, though some processes are happening without me because i don't know the process (because my boss has not had time to walk me through it) and my managers have been doing it without an administrator for a while and not knowing the process i am not able to effectively provide the leadership and structure and communications they all say they want, but they are being patient and so am i... so i am settling in and feel good about how i am being accepted and trusted...

meanwhile, changes in the rest of life... friends are in need and i am giving them my softball sundays for a few months... as if the universe knew i was giving up sunday afternoon softball and sunday morning softball is on hiatus and jackson and i were gonna enjoy football season for the first time without softball in six or seven years and the universe said no, you'd rather help friends in need...

and then there's the car... the same day the friends in need started being my sunday, the car reached a point where i rented a car (to help my friends) and since then, i've been renting a car every week... five weeks now... foolish expenditure that could have been a chunk of down payment on a car and time passes because i am working so many hours and have not had time to car shop offline except saturday and i have not wanted to do it on saturdays... the car i probably want is a few hour drive and jackson has been too busy too drive me there on saturdays anyway... i haven't wanted to ask anyone else to give me a day and drive a few hours and wait for me to car shop...

yeah, i procrastinate from time to time and it costs me money... hopefully by the next time i record life here in this blog i will not be paying a weekly rental and have a new car... if the apartment doesn't cost too much... yes, there is an apartment snafu... the current place wants a $150 increase when the lease is up in at the end of january... no way is this place worth that... so now we need to search for other places when i don't have much time to search for a car, so i did some online research and found a much better place for the same price they are asking... the cost of moving and deposite and pet fees are another six car payments, or more (close to $2000), but hey, it's a better place... so jackson wants to meet with the manager here to see if they will negotiate and we will do that one morning this week...

just like a soap opera, huh?...

wonder what will happen between now and the next record of a life...

wonder when that will be...

wonder why i am wondering... must be fatigue... or something i ate... good night world (moon too)...